When I first when to school in Kindergarten, I was bullied, from the first and second weeks of school. They excluded me, they called me names… they would talk to me and pretend to be my friend and would joke about it to themselves later. The first day of school, I was really confident, I would try brush it off, but sometimes I just couldn't.My mom thought it was a problem when she found out in 3rd grade, so she made me move schools.
When I moved to the new school in 3rd grade, I was incredibly anti-social.In Kindergarten, they bullied me for having weird hair (it's really curly) for liking the things that I liked, for being confident in myself (like saying hi to other kids or being able to make conversation).In 3rd grade, my mom actually paid me to go and make friends. She stopped and took all of the money back when she realized that I wasn't. I didn't want to be made fun of, I thought that if I didn't say anything to anyone, they'd all leave me alone, that I could just go through school and get it over with each day.
In 4th grade, they made a huge rumor about me. I got a DS on my birthday, and I had a "friend" over, and we were looking through the yearbook from my new school. She saw a boy and thought he was cute, she's like "omg isnt he cute?" and I said "no" so when I went to the bathroom, she went on my DS and you know how if you go into the chat on those, you can click on the person's username and it'll say something they wrote? Like "I love my Dad" or "I like sports"..? This girl wrote "I think ___ ___ is cute!" and I would go into the chat with the other kids from my new school, and they would be like "You like ___ ___!!!" I never knew what was going on, I didn't know about that feature.So they'd make fun of me, and I never even did anything.
Now, in 8th grade, I thought I had found a friend that wouldn't make fun of me. I could consider her my best friend, but she already haaaad a best friend from 4th grade (of coooourse ))) I can't compete with her best friend, and it really hurts that I can't have a best friend that considers me as her best friend too.
These two girls also like to bully me too… they say that they're the queens and I'm the peasant. Whenever I'd try to say something, they'd say "Shut up, peasant!" or "you're wrong, peasant!" They're both Spanish, so sometimes they'll go off in another direction speaking Spanish, leaving me awkwardly.
I don't even think they consider me as a friend, just as someone to entertain them when the other girl isn't there. If girl #1 is on the bus with me and #2 isn't there, that's the only time she'll talk to me. If girl #1 decides to skip school or something, that's the only time girl #2 will talk to me. They like to make me the 3rd wheel. I think they enjoy it. Oh, and they like to make me feel bad about me being poor. They brag about having iPhone 5s and iPads. They aren't even grateful for them, and I can't afford to have them.
Why can't people ever be nice to me? Did I do something wrong at one point? I can't do this anymore, I can't be bullied anymore. I want to know why people feel the need to make me feel like crap.
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