Saturday, December 1, 2012

Nobody understands me?

My day was miserable today. I started my morning off, with an upset stomach, vomiting, and pain.My dad was there helping me, with medicine. I was awake for 3 hours, 3 hours… Of pain.My tummy still hurts up till now. And well, today I was in the mall, getting medicine from the pharmacy, and my stomach was still painful. I rested on my sisters shoulder, and my dad started laughing and taking pictures, but I started tearing up, because he was LAUGHING.My body was in pain and for that moment it feels like he does not care one bit. I didn't understand what was so funny, so my sister told my dad I wads crying and she told him why. And my dad said " I can't believe you thought this of me " and ever since he got all angry in the afternoon. And when we came home, I was lying in the couch ful of PAIN and he told me to get up, and go clean my room because me and my sister were switching rooms. I was too tired, so I fell asleep on my bed. And they were making so much noise I couldn't sleep, and when he was checking on me, he had a angry face on, and didn't bother to say anything, like " are you feeling better"? Or " want some tea"?. I went down stairs, and he was just there on his iPad, listening to music or something, while I was on the ground, curled up in a ball, in pain. He went down stairs, didn't bother to help me or say anything. Pretty much he ignored me. I went up stairs, went to my bed room, and listened to relaxing music, and then I fell asleep. I woke up, my dad told me to go pray. And I did.My dad says god is merciful and will give everything to the good people, and well if he does that, why not to me? I always suffer from pain. I have met many bad people and nothing bad happens to them, just to me.It's not fair. I was eating dinner, until my tooth was about to come out, so I went to the bathroom, rinsed my mouth and I tried to pull it, but it would hurt even more, so I continued to rinse my mouth from all the blood, and my dad came and told me to pull it out, but I said I can't because half of my tooth is stuck to the gums, and he just said, whatever its your choice, but I ended up pulling it out, I just took my iPad and go upstairs, my mum asked me if I wanted tea, or medicine and I said no. Nobody understands me.my sisters make fun of me and call me names when I vomit. They call me ' barfy barfs a lot ' and that makes me feel bad, my dad isn't supporting anymore, my mum is making me do extra work when I'm sick, I just don't know what to do :( I want all this pain to go away!!! Please help me, and don't say anything rude or mean, because I'm not in the mood fighting back
Added (1). Nvm, what I said about god, I will always love him :)
>>> Nobody understands me?