I'm so scared, paranoid, nervous and it's making me sick and bring me to tears and panic attacks!
Basically it started an hour ago…
My dad was talking to my mum, saying "I had a message from the police today telling me to stop going in a certain website" to which she replied "what website" to which he said "not until he's on bed" ( he being me, the only boy and other person in the house at the time)
So I'm panicking! It's clearly about me! Now I haven't been on any bad websites. I don't think! I'm not stupid and I'm careful in the Internet but what if I did one day, by mistake or pure stupidity? I ranking my brain trying to remember any 'bad' website I may of been on.i have so much going on in my head I don't know what to do! But I do watch porn… Which I don't think is illegal, unless a website I went on is. ( I don't watch any sick or any bad type of porn ) but the main thing that is scarring me if it is porn then I screwed! I'm gay so I watch gay porn! The police man would of told my dad what type of site it was. I'm only 16 I'm not ready to come out yet and my family is extremely homophobic! Also I have been having less and less gay thoughts and generally I'm getting more heterosexual! In the depths on my depression where I have almost killed myself I had searched suicide stuff I'm no longer that bad but again it's something they don't know nor ever will know anything about! It was never on a pc ( the porn) always off my iPad and at my other home ( where I am more ), I go on the same sites if not more and I don't think I have ever had a problem there!
And non it going to be ok, it's for the best crap! I'm hiding away almost crying! I don't think I have e ever been on any bad sites! Can the police do this? ( I have so much more to say but I'm so panicked I forgot, if I remember I shall add it in )
But It's clearly about me, what if its about my porn… Or anything else!
I'm having a panic attack now I can't sleep! I can't talk to him about it I get to nervous and start feeling faint if i get crowded I awful in these situations! I just want to run away?
HELP PLEASE! Advice?
Added (1). The main site I use is gaymaletube.com I do use others but is this banned in the uk?
And what sites are banned in the uk?
Am I over reacting?
Thanks In advance
Added (2). @Ashley l I know! I fell bad and I'm not obsessed but every single *** man does it, please don't make this worse for me!
Added (3). Just thought I would add our Internet providered is BT with Bt infinitely don't know if that means anything? Thanks so far for all the answers, they would know who it was in the house just that it happened, so when they said they need to talk to my dad it could still mean me right?
I'm honeslty sick with fear I don't know what to do!
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